Life!

Life. Productivity. Success.

I just exist these days. After the earthquake, I can just be thankful. So when my plans fall through, when it feels like days pass without great accomplishment or success, I go back to the basics. I remember that I have shelter, food, and a heartbeat. I have a great network of heartbeats and caring beings, actually, so I am stronger than just one living body.

Today, I am trying to find housing. This is a challenge since I´m less than effective lately. In fact, half of the things I raise to my lips to eat fall back down. I lose things and have trouble focusing. But with time and patience, I will settle into a routine and normalcy.

Somehow, I was completely duped with my previous arrangement which I find discouraging. I momentarily lost focus for resenting the people involved for a time. As it turns out, I have better things to do than hang onto anger. The only thing to do is move forward. I hope that I pick up a home, patience, an attention span, and perspective in my attempt to do so. Where is my sense of humor? I´m waiting for it´s return.