Life!

Life. Productivity. Success.

I just exist these days. After the earthquake, I can just be thankful. So when my plans fall through, when it feels like days pass without great accomplishment or success, I go back to the basics. I remember that I have shelter, food, and a heartbeat. I have a great network of heartbeats and caring beings, actually, so I am stronger than just one living body.

Today, I am trying to find housing. This is a challenge since I´m less than effective lately. In fact, half of the things I raise to my lips to eat fall back down. I lose things and have trouble focusing. But with time and patience, I will settle into a routine and normalcy.

Somehow, I was completely duped with my previous arrangement which I find discouraging. I momentarily lost focus for resenting the people involved for a time. As it turns out, I have better things to do than hang onto anger. The only thing to do is move forward. I hope that I pick up a home, patience, an attention span, and perspective in my attempt to do so. Where is my sense of humor? I´m waiting for it´s return.

Terremoto

My experience with earthquakes so far has been somewhat different for me. My moodswings may have something to do with my very shaken sleep, the absence of my boyfriend, unnerving aftershocks, a lack of jokes, and the devastation of this country. I want to punch the next aftershock that comes through. In truth, being active is the best way to air out my grouchiness, but I can´t just continue moving forever.

Eh, oops

I don´t completely agree with the things I said yesterday. I´m embarrassed even to have thought that things were so orderly and simple. Can I make up for it by saying that my heart is with the people of this country as they try to recover their lives?

Concepción is in dire need.